Time flies
Sep. 28th, 2008 02:59 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
madeleoneJust sitting here thinking about time, life, whatever.
My oldest son Ben is getting married next week, my first to wed. So following are just ramblings of a mom not quite ready to believe that time has flown by so quickly.
First of all I can hardly believe that I myself am nearing mid 50's (54 next month), God I am old!!! I don't feel like it, I still think I feel the same as 20's, 30's, 40's. Where does the time go and how did it pass so quickly? And now Ben is getting married, holy shit!, he was just a baby and now a grown man. He's 28, through college, a successful career as a pharmacist, a homeowner, and soon to be someone's husband. And yet I can still picture him as that tall gangly little boy with the shy smile, the first day of school, boy scouts, his first dance, band camp, getting his drivers license. Sigh. But what he has is what I have always hoped for for my children, a good stable job, being independent, successful, happy.
And we really like Molly, (I love that name). She is sweet, nice, friendly, they make such a lovely couple. And I know she makes him happy. I am so glad they found each other.
My other kids are out on their own, 2nd son living with roommates sub teaching until he can find a full time job, older daughter away at grad school. My youngest daughter also just moved out this week, she's in her 2nd year at Comm. College but moved in with 2 friends. So that is another milestone for the first time in over 28 years hubby and I are alone at home.
So it isn't as though I am feeling sad that I am losing my "little boy" I guess it is just that it is making me feel so old. My whole brood is growing up, and my role in life is changing. Instead of my main role being Ben and Tony and Katie and Jessie's mom, it now has to move to being someone else. This is not necessarily a bad thing, just different. The thing I mainly can't get over is how life just happens so damn fast, it goes by in the blink of an eye.
My oldest son Ben is getting married next week, my first to wed. So following are just ramblings of a mom not quite ready to believe that time has flown by so quickly.
First of all I can hardly believe that I myself am nearing mid 50's (54 next month), God I am old!!! I don't feel like it, I still think I feel the same as 20's, 30's, 40's. Where does the time go and how did it pass so quickly? And now Ben is getting married, holy shit!, he was just a baby and now a grown man. He's 28, through college, a successful career as a pharmacist, a homeowner, and soon to be someone's husband. And yet I can still picture him as that tall gangly little boy with the shy smile, the first day of school, boy scouts, his first dance, band camp, getting his drivers license. Sigh. But what he has is what I have always hoped for for my children, a good stable job, being independent, successful, happy.
And we really like Molly, (I love that name). She is sweet, nice, friendly, they make such a lovely couple. And I know she makes him happy. I am so glad they found each other.
My other kids are out on their own, 2nd son living with roommates sub teaching until he can find a full time job, older daughter away at grad school. My youngest daughter also just moved out this week, she's in her 2nd year at Comm. College but moved in with 2 friends. So that is another milestone for the first time in over 28 years hubby and I are alone at home.
So it isn't as though I am feeling sad that I am losing my "little boy" I guess it is just that it is making me feel so old. My whole brood is growing up, and my role in life is changing. Instead of my main role being Ben and Tony and Katie and Jessie's mom, it now has to move to being someone else. This is not necessarily a bad thing, just different. The thing I mainly can't get over is how life just happens so damn fast, it goes by in the blink of an eye.
